Wednesday, 03 December 2008

  • Kinda lonely.

     I dunno.  Maybe I'm just being weird.  I have friends, but I'm losing the deep connections that I used to have.  Or maybe they're still there and I need to be reminded of their existance.  Or maybe I'm taking what I have for granted.  Who knows?

     

    It's like, I read or hear about other stuff that people are doing together, and it's like, "What about me?"  Which is stupid, because in our group, I do get invited but I usually decide not to go so I don't complicate things with my family. 

     

    It feels like I don't have anybody, which, again, is stupid, but I can't control these moments when I'm undeniably lonely.

     

    That's what running and music is for, right?  I haven't run in the longest time... since summer.  Maybe tonight if I don't chicken out because of the dark.

     

    To the world, I proclaim:  Screw off.

Tuesday, 11 November 2008

  • Haven't updated in a while.

    Yeah, just a small update, for record's purpose.

     

    I'm really into old/grunge rock at the moment.  Pearl Jam, The Who, Nirvana.... yeah... really strange.  But I'm having fun?  There's a Rush concert on HD Music right now, and the drumming is just blowing me away.  It's their 30th anniversary thing or something.

     

    School's going okay.  Better than I thought it would be, but English is definitely not.

     

    Going to sleep at 7/8, waking up at 4/5.  What a schedule.  But I'm getting my homework done, so it's okay, I guess.  Not very many dreams, though.  Except this morning, it was so random.  I woke up at 4:30, stayed up for an hour, then made myself fall back asleep.  Had a weird dream about Dynasty Warrior video game, Jenny wearing a bag over her head as a cosplay, and something else that apparently has no real significance.

     

    How strange.  Balance is coming easier than I thought it would.  I feel like I'm growing up, keeping things to myself and not being burdened by my own silence.  Kinda nice, but still strange.

     

    Sleep would be good now.  Maybe another update in a month.

     

    Oh, tomorrow's Erin's birthday.  Man, 5 years already.  Where have they all gone?

Sunday, 26 October 2008